Returning to Dota after playing it as a routine built-up over several months is a tad harder than I imagined. It's just like what seems common advice for people trying to get into a hobby - to get a pal that will motivate you. So I got one by luck, him finding me. I usually would get online on Steam and be greeted by him, shortly after being dragged into Mumble whether I feel like it or not, and go into a spree of Dota 2 matches. However I've lost contact with that friend due to his personal issues, and I'm having trouble playing by myself again.
Without a friend, I've gone back to where I was before. With a trusted friend it was easier to stay calm, however now I'm overly stressful going into a game. Encountering passive-aggressive criticism drags me down even further. I don't ever rage at others, I think that the majority of "problems" that the Dota community encounters, where it's teammates' faults or bad behavior is a deal of one's self. But instead I'm often too hard on myself. I'm self-aware of my mistakes and they add to the stress I already have. While I'm trying to work on becoming assertive, it feels slow.
So, I'm looking for a friend that I can get acquainted with and play with. I'm not very outspoken but I don't mind breaking this barrier. I would like to get better at the game also in the mechanical and decision making-sense. I'm a falling 3k, but in a moment I'll be back to studying the current featured article for the 3rd time.
It's possible to find me anywhere under the same nick - Anijatsu. That means Steam, Dotabuff, Dotamax, whatever else there could be.
http://steamcommunity.com/id/Anijatsu
http://www.dotabuff.com/players/27505082
http://dotamax.com/player/detail/27505082/